Don't sweat the small things?

I recently had a very heartfelt conversation with a very good friend of mine and it was late at night and it was just the two of us. And for some odd reason, we had hung out many times before but we had never had a really deep conversation about our lives. It was as if we were both strangers to each other as we opened our hearts up and allowed the other to look inside and see more and give more of ourselves to the other. It was hard, no doubt, to open up and leave yourself vulnerable and waiting for the other to say something about what you had revealed about yourself that you hide from so many others. But it left me feeling more complete and less empty than i hae felt in years.

I had decided to share with my friend the story of the relationship between me and my parents, and to explain the relationship between my mom and my dad. And this one particular event has been bothering me for quite some time. I was in walmart running some errands with my mom when my dads co manager brian came up and said that my dad was eating all of the oatmeal raisin cookies and refusing to share with any of the other managers because they were his favorite and another female employee had made them for him. Then my mom asked me to go and grab a couple of things for her and to meet her back in the same spot in a couple minutes. The next time i ran into my mom, she was holding flour, sugar, oatmeal, butter, eggs, and raisins. Stuff to make oatmeal raisin cookies. We check out and go home and for the next 3 hours, my mom slaves away and makes batch after batch of oatmeal raisin cookies for my father. My dad comes home and my mom shows my dad what she had been doing all day, and his response "I can't eat that shit. You know i'm on a fucking diet." But it wasn't the response that broke my heart. It was my mothers face. It was so full of... hurt and misunderstanding and all that she wanted to do was to please him. For him to love her. And as a child, i would have never have noticed this. I would have never seen how hard my mom worked and i would have never have seen how much it hurt her and how hard she tried to hide it.

So, i shared that story with my friend along with many others, and one of the many stories that she shared with me, was of her dad. And how he owns his own business and how every day around 3 they would go out and run errands. And when she was younger, they would always park in the farthest spot away from the entrance. And one day she asked why they always parked so far away and her dad told her that the close spots were for old people, sick people, and those that can't walk very far. And as the years have gone by, they have been parking closer and closer. And her dad is dying and he is very sick. They park in the first spot available, and he can barely make it to the door without having to stop and take a breath and regain strength. But, as a child, she would never have noticed this change.

As i grow up and have become shall we say wiser, i have started noticing these very small, minute details and i have noticed that they are so... HURTFUL. The are more hurtful than the big, tramatic things that you would think would hurt more. Like a death, a friend that leaves you, a parent that walks out on you. Whatever it may be. I have come to notice that one big thing doesn't happen a lot. But many many small things happen constantly and if you notice them, they add up and have a bigger impact on you then the very very occasional big event. So these small things, build and build and build, and they come to weigh your heart down. and you can never forget them. So, i'm curious. What are some of the small things weighing down on your hearts?

Friday the 13th, A day for Superstitious People and also... A pathetic movie series!

Well, it's Friday the 13th so what better time than to recap the ridiculous film series of the same name...let's see..

1980 - Friday the 13th
1981 - Friday the 13th Part II (Imaginative!!)
1982 - Friday the 13th Part III (Clever!)

It's important to note how long it took to make these films.. wow, a whole year in between.. that's a sign of quality!! Let's move on to...

1984 - Friday the 13th: The Final Chapter (Sweet, the last one!)
1985 - Friday the 13th: A New Beginning (Dammit!!)
1986 - Friday the 13th Part VI: Jason Lives (Well, duh!)

We've once again scrimped on quality to get these movies in theaters as soon as possible... after a one year break we again delve into the macabre world of...

1988 - Friday the 13th Part VII: The New Blood (I don't even know what this means...)
1989 - Friday the 13th Part VIII: Jason Takes Manhattan (I'm hoping he'll kill me at this point.)

...a gap while the geniuses at New Line Cinema take control of the Franchise... and.. well...

1993 - Jason Goes to Hell: The Final Friday (I don't believe them for a second...)
2002 - Jason X (I can't adequately describe this myself.. so let's let the minions of Wikipedia take a crack at it....)

This movie begins in the near future. A team of government scientists at the Crystal Lake Research Facility has captured the notorious Jason Voorhees. Their plan is to freeze him in cryogenic suspension; but, as usual, things go horribly wrong, and Jason breaks free. A survivor of Jason's rampage lures him into the cryogenic chamber, but before she can escape, Jason mortally wounds her, and both are frozen in cryogenic suspension. Over 400 years later, on a contaminated, desolate planet Earth that has been abandoned for centuries, archaeologists discover the two frozen ancestors in the "ancient" underground remains of the Crystal Lake Research Facility. The lone survivor of the attack at the research facility centuries ago is unfrozen and revived. First presumed dead, Jason begins doing what he does best - silently stalking the crew, who fight for their lives as their numbers dwindle. Just when they think they have beat him, he becomes more powerful than ever.

I think it's important to note that this movie made Less Than 14 Million Dollars at the U.S. Box Office... and they still made another one!

2003 - Freddy vs. Jason (I still maintain this would have been far more interesting if he had battled Fred Flintstone... but no one listened...)

This one made 82 million. Why on earth haven't they done another? (I shouldn't tempt them.. let's end this...)

Sadly, I own Friday the 13th: Part III. I have no idea why. I don't think that i have even ever sat down and viewed the film, but whatever. Someday, if i ever feel, for some odd reason, that i need to view it, I know i have it.... somewhere. Needless to say, they are a good laugh for their stupidity and ridiculousness (is this a word? it is now). So, i will leave you with this amazing statement by a comedian.

Comedian: I can't believe they're making another Friday the 13th sequel. These kids are so easy to kill you could strangle one with a cordless phone...

A Serious Ass Whooping

This here is a audio clip from a radio show about a guy who is driving home calling his friend when he sees an accident. A guy ran a red light, and hit a car with four old Ladies. The guy gets out to go yell at the old ladies and manages to get his ass whooped by four old ladies.
But the best part is the guy who is describing the whole scene. He is totally enjoying watching these old ladies beating the crap out of this guy with umbrellas, pepper spray, purses and a cattle prod. His laughter is totally contagious.
Do you know how hard it is to find pictures of old ladies being tough? You'd think it'd be easier, what with all the Monty Python Skits that involve old ladies.

Here's the link, hopefully this works!
http://www.chumfm.com/MorningShow/bits/march24.swf

frustrated!!!!!

how come i am having such horrible probelms in converting "my blog" when i am not the wner in the first place?!!!! i am also struggling just to make comments, because i am not updated blah blah blah i don't care! i thought i woul djust take a couple of minutes to vent and possible declare this blog at least temporarily dead, for my inability to figure out how to make more post's at proper times.

nemi talked about having a diary today and after many attempts i gave up and tried video diaries which ended in the same way, but in some way i guess this could be a diary too. i may not be that faithful to it but i sure hate writing and it's very quickly improving my typing speed skills. i kind of got excited to write in my diary that amanda gave me for x-mas, which i will make an attempt in writing in during the two big trips this year. a little retirement from blogging and a change for writing in my cool new notebook.
frustrated, but listening to ghetto fabulous music, kummet

a really strange groundhogs day...

so today was one crazy friday school-wise. way too much to even explain.

i received two strange pieces of mail also.
1. a letter from my cousin hailey (8) that had a litttle q and a and i was cited as ther person she admires most. how cute!
2. a letter/package from ollie at saint scholastica. in it was a "groundhogs day reminder" reminding me to send in deposits, FAFSA, ect. it also contained a small note and a package of m and m's...? overall cool guy.

then i decided to end the day with a final hurrah. the high school musical party! i very good way to unwind, enjoy a friday night off, and get it out of the system before tomorrow. oh yeah and take like a million facebook pic's. tomorrow: 7:30 to 10 applebees, 11-2 ponchos host, 5-? (7ish) expo. wish me luck.

um ... what chivalry REALLY means

deebs new theory on why men open doors for women:
1. they get a nice veiw (on most occasions)
2. if a woman enters the room and starts to scream, if there was for example a lion in the room, then the man can simply shut the door and therefore have avioded a gruesome death

in other news: our dear friend abby has entered the bloggosphere, please make her feel welcome this is the address: www.gailahlbergtalks.blogspot.com

yay! pancake breakfast on saturday. if your cool you will be there.

"mom guess what i learned in school today"

new semester means for me one new teacher: Mr Borash aka deebs? he had some interesting insight on friday. you know very useful information: practical joke information.

1. in a college setting: since dorm doors open from the inside put pennies in the door wedged between the cracks so that they can't get out, forcing them to miss classes, ect. until someone comes to knock out the pennies, and let them out.

2. fill a large grorery bag fullof baby powder and then slide it under the door of the dorm member who you seek revenge with and then jump onto of the full side of the bag, forcing the powder to shoot out and cover the room completly.

3. THE ULTIMATE: blong vs. deebs. two years ago there was talk about adding classrooms in the basement of the school and blong jumped at the idea. blong continued to fantisize about a room in the basement where no one could bother him and he would have two large windows. once the rooms were built blong, engen, and nelson had claimed them and moved in. life WAS good for blong. deebs, blong, and pritchett were talking in the parking lot a few days later, and deebs warns blong that he might not have the nice room as long as he thinks and that they would probably say something about it at the meeting tom. blong brushes him off, and it is not mentioned at the meeting.

much later steve the janitor comes down to the basement carrying lots of large boxes, blong questiones him and steve says he's just doing his job. they go to talk to his supervisor, and as steve gives him the wink, he agrees and says they could be moving things soon. later he runs into engen who asks if he received the e-mail about the special ed classes wanting the basement rooms, and blong remembers seeing the special ed supervisor walking around the week before.

blong is fuming by now, and needs to talk to the raz, so 1st hour the next day he writes the assignment on the board and runs up to talk to the raz, but he sees him talking to the superintendent and continues to pace outside. 2ns hour he writes the assignment and runs back up to razidlo and steps on his foot then whispers we have to talk. razidlo yells at him that he's been "punked" and busts out laughing. blong furiously goes back to his class and the raz follows him and continues to tell the classes how he was punked without revealing the name. then carmen cummings asks "so blong do you kow who did it?" way to suspicious for blong he tries to corner her cause he thinks she knows. she leaves her high heels and sprints out of the room. blong ducktapes her shoes together and hangs them from the cieling. a little while later while working out a problem on the board he sudenly pauses as he remembers the parking lot conversation. "deebs" he leaves the class and marches up to borash's room. yells "hey deebs" as borash looks to the doorway to see blong giving him the "double bird".